Nana

We lost our Nana today. For those of you who don't know, Nana is Paul's mom. She's been on a long, painful cancer journey. None of us know how she was able to endure so much for so long. Only--yes we do. The Lord, the Lord, the Lord. Praise God she was His child! He sustained her and gave her deep joy and put a smile on her face and blessed her with a large family and comforted her (when distance or illness wouldn't let her be with her children and grandchildren) and was her Companion when she was alone and gifted her with many true, true friends (who quite literally took care of her) and gave her strength and proved Himself faithful.

I am drained to empty after this very long day. It is, in a word, surreal...as I write this on HER computer in HER house with HER things all around me. I expect to hear her padding down the hallway in her houseshoes with her coffee cup--going for a refill. I expect to see her "propped up" (as she always said) in her bed, laughing at something the kids are doing or saying. I expect and WANT her to pat the bed next to her and tell me to climb up there beside her so we can talk. Things will never ever be the same.

Please pray for my children...and for Paul...and...for all of us.

Humility

She said it so well.

The Simple Woman's Daybook

For Today...

Outside my window...a beautiful, but cool day. Aprils (along with every month) in Arkansas can be very confusing. Oh, and POSSIBLY--could it be?--maybe a few blooms on the azaleas I thought were dead. Still not totally sure they'll make it, but at least now I have some hope...

I am thinking...it's a daily challenge for two babies to share a bedroom.

From the learning rooms...hopefully, Noah is reading something. Right now, I'm too busy dealing with the aforementioned "challenge" to know exactly what's going on in our "learning room."

I am thankful for...a plan for home energy savings. I'll fill you in as things come to fruition.

From the kitchen...hmm...probably should consider that, huh?

I am wearing...pajamas...sorry, but I am. Specifically, winter peppermint pajama pants and a tee shirt that doesn't match. Pretty yucky.

I am reading...The Prodigal God with my community group at church...and lots of blogs.

I am hoping...we can avoid the doctor's office for ear infections.

I am creating...a baby announcement for Atticus. Come back soon...I may let you VOTE for your favorite.

I am hearing...a lullaby CD and a baby fussing.

Around the house...Gabe's lunch dishes (because he's too young yet to clean up after himself), laundry to fold, and the usual variety of strewn toys and random objects Gabriel LOVES to drag out and carry to a new place. Sometimes we find things in the most surprising places!

One of my favorite things...is shopping online, but it's a bit too late for Easter stuff. Boo hoo. I may actually have to GET OUT and find some deals. Not an easy task, my friends.

A few plans for the rest of the week...aha! A great place for a list, wouldn't you say?

1. Prepare grocery list for Wednesday's shopping trip (thanks, Daddy)
2. Get china out of the attic and wash it for the Global Women's High Tea event our church is sponsoring
3. Finalize plans and begin food preparation for Noah's birthday party Saturday
4. Drag out the Easter baskets and egg stuff from the attic (while I'm getting the china out)
5. Fix a basket for Atticus
6. Find Easter clothing for F-O-U-R children (preferably matching)
7. Pick up a pair of Crocs for the three oldest kiddos (this and a couple of candy items is what I plan to fill their baskets with this year)
8. Clean and straighten for the party (AND my parents are coming up to stay with us this weekend)
9. Get Noah some cleats for his game on Saturday morning
10. Dr. appointment for two on Tuesday (unless our home remedies work first)
    
11. Soccer practice Tuesday
12. Ballet and Awana Wednesday
13. Take clean china to event location on Friday
14. Switch auto insurance providers, send in state tax returns, a few more April bills, assess property taxes, and get busy on that energy savings plan I mentioned (fun, fun, fun)
    

Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...

Noah's invitation
More to come about his party

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O, Baby

Once upon a blue moon...

I was this little. And had cool toys. And was an only child (for a few years anyway). And looked good in my chunky fat rolls. And played with a long strap, from the looks of things. {cHoKIng HaZarD!?!} And took a pretty cute picture.

May 17

7 lb. 11 oz. (one guess as to how I can remember that)

But then I grew up. .. And met the grown-up version of THIS little guy.

September baby
6 lb. ?? (what a lightweight!)
Notice this pic is scrapbooked and everything!!
(I'm not taking credit for it. Just pointing it out.)

And then we "married." (That's what Saylor would say. "This is when you married." And what that actually means (to her) is that I wore a "BEE-yoo-tiful" dress and danced with someone. Only 'ceptin' I didn't dance 'cause the church would have said "N-O," but that's another story.)

August 1999

Exactly TWO years later almost to the date we found out we would have a baby of our own. We had never been happier. After all, we had been trying and waiting for this baby for 9 long months. Isn't it hard to be patient?? Anyway, our first little miracle was born on April 11, 2002. (Yes! His birthday is coming up!!)

Noah Paul Davidson

Paul started law school 4 months later (going part-time at night while working full-time during the day). Thus began my adventures as a single mother. Paul was great, though. He was home when he COULD be. He often worked at home and studied at home. And I fell more and more in love with him as I watched him being a father. And saw how he adored our sweet little boy (even though he could carry on like you'd never believe).

Two and a half years later, our "bee-yoo-tiful" daughter was born.

Saylor Kathryn Davidson

October 5, 2004

And thus continued my adventures as a single mom. Paul was busier and busier as the end of school neared. It was downright crazy at times. There were semesters he had class 4 nights a week! And then he'd have to come home and study. I really wasn't sure it would ever really end. But then it did. That little "lightweight" I married finished 4 years of law school with honors (can you believe it?!) and still managed to support all of us so that I could stay home with my babies. And thus ended my adventures as a single mom. Oh, glorious day!!

Officially an Attorney
Summer 2006

A few months later I became pregnant with baby #3. And thus began our search for a bigger home. Ha!

Gabriel Isaiah Davidson
May 23, 2007

The bigger home was acquired 5 months after little Gabriel arrived. And not a moment too soon! Because a few months later we found out baby #4 was on the way. Whew!

Atticus Joseph Davidson
October 9, 2008

Oh, and this man was there for every single one of them. How special is that?

My sweet doc

Today's post topic brought to you by Rach at In His Hands.

Please Make It Stop...

Okay. I'm SOOOOO sick of unsolicited phone calls. I just don't know what to do anymore. Seriously. I can't deal. The only time our home phone rings (and those of you who know me personally know that I'm talking about WHEN it rings...since it's hardly ever charged or even turned ON) is when some MACHINE dials our number. Sick, sick, sick of it. My exasperation is OBVIOUS, too! I cannot control my eyes from rolling around in my head several times nor my lungs from releasing the biggest SIGH of the century! Do y'all know what I'm talking about??

Just this past week I received calls about off-brand satellite TV offers, life insurance for seniors (huh?), lower interest rates for credit cards (again! see #6 here), a consumer survey, several calls looking for Gladys Brown (who? we've lived here a year and a half and companies are STILL searching for this lady at OUR number), and a warning (for the fifth time) that this was the "final" call I'd be receiving to remind me that the factory warranty was expiring on our vehicle (oh, the irony).

Come ONNNNN!!! Please tell me. What exactly IS the "National Do-Not Call List" anyway?? I mean, we got on the list long ago, but now they've figured out a way around it. If a computer calls you, then there's no way for you to "tell" them to stop calling you and/or report them for breaking the law. Drives me crazy (in case you couldn't tell). I guess I just don't understand WHY this is happening. And, more importantly, WHAT, if anything, I can do about it. (Saving money by not having Caller ID is backfiring on us a bit, it seems...)

And T-H-E-N, who should appear at my door Thursday but "Dwayne from Detroit," wearing a lanyard and backpack and peeking through the glass on my front doors so that I couldn't hide or pretend I wasn't home. He was loud and boisterous (I guess I can give him an "A" for enthusiasm) and...selling something. Ah, but of course. Now, mind you, this sort of thing is not supposed to be allowed in most neighborhoods, but somehow these people get around the rules (as usual). Today's can't-live-without-it product was a dilutable green apple-scented non-toxic all-purpose cleaner (whew! that's a lot of hyphens!) for--get this--36 dollars! What?! Now, yes, it was a big bottle, and yes--I gotcha--, it's dilutable. But for goodness' sake! 36 dollars??! Now, I'm all for a good deal (and $36 to make 36 spray bottles of cleaner at $1 a piece is, admittedly, a good deal), but a gal doesn't always have $36 to just "DROP" on the fly like that.

So after he did the whole "leading question" thing: "Mrs. Davidson, would you say this one bottle would be enough for your cleaning needs, or will you need some more?" and "How many bottles do you think your husband will need to clean that oil stain on the driveway?" I told the guy that I would not be able to purchase anything from him at this time. He, of COURSE, wanted to know why. I answered that it was the end of the month and we had not been paid yet (true, but only in part--I've since learned to be more straightforward).

Do you know what this guy did next? I swear, y'all would NEVER guess!! DWAYNE with the lanyard and backpack excused himself for a moment so that he could take a "look" around the neighborhood ("to get his bearings," he said)...he peered around, across and down the street, then looked back at me and asked, "Am I dreaming? Is this for real?" And THEN he proceeded to walk BACK up to my doorstep and with a snide and haughty tone said, "Now. Let me ask you again! How many bottles are you going to purchase today?" Now this flew all over me, but I very sweetly answered, "I'm sorry, but what you don't have any idea about is what OUR particular finances are like. So I can't buy any today. Thanks anyway." But do you think that ended it? Well, NO! This guy performed his funny little "act" all over again, walking out to the sidewalk and looking around (with great fanfare), but this time before he could rudely ask me once more how many bottles I'd be buying on "this beautiful day," just as he was turning around I set his product sample down on my doorstep, thanked him for coming, and promptly closed my door (and locked it). He didn't put up a fight. He was smart enough to know that he was downright RUDE and he'd better hightail it off my property. I'm thinking at the very least, he should rethink his sales tactics. Offending people prAH-buh-blee isn't the way to go about it. Ya know?

Well! I said all that to say that if I NEED some insurance, I'll call around. If I decide I'd better renew all our various factory warranties, I'll take care of it. I don't need TWO satellites on my house, that's for sure. I'm not a senior...just yet. I do not wish to share my opinion(s) with any companies, because I don't have that kind of time. Gladys Brown does NOT live here, nor has she ever! So do NOT call ME!!! And I'll be cleaning with vinegar and water around here, thank you very much.

Ultimate Blog Party

I'm participating in Ultimate Blog Party '09 just for fun. So if you're HERE visiting from the Par-TAY, then you should know I'm a 34-year-old Southern homeschooling mommy of four. (See their pics on my banner?) I started blogging in October '08 for the purpose of keeping the grandparents up-to-date on our lives, but it very quickly morphed into something else entirely. The whole thing is still pretty new for me, so as a result, I haven't picked up "Wordless Wednesday," "Thursday Thirteen," or any other alliterative blogercise because for one thing, a post entitled "Wordless Wednesday" would imply that I HAVE words but am just holding them back for the sake of focusing on photos, and that is certainly not the case. I'm just not there yet; I'm still getting used to letting the words FLOW and sharing my thoughts with the wOrLD and stuff like that. And another reason is, it's sometimes difficult for me to even keep UP with exactly WHAT day it is. I'd forever be posting on the wrong day of the week...(sigh). So for the time being what you'll find here at The Davidson Den is:

• randomness
• attempts at cuteness
• definite cuteness (kid photos)
• rants I wish I could take back
• open and honest emotions
• a whole lot of parentheses (I happen to like them very much...see??)
• Christian stuff (because I AM one)
• FYI tidbits you could most likely live without
• poorly-composed vignettes about family trips, events, issues, and activities
• fragments and run-on sentences galore (because while I may KNOW grammar, I could care less about using it in my journals, cyber or otherwise)

Stick around with me, and you just might get a pictorial tour of our home, hear about how we came to live here, read about past and present birthday parties, perhaps get some ideas for various creative pursuits, get a peek into our typical homeschooling day, maybe even catch a "Wordless Wednesday" or two, and witness the general craziness that we Davidsons experience on a regular basis here at The Davidson Den. Now, if that doesn't scare you off, maybe we'll see you back here real soon!!

Oh! And by the way, for those of you who have been reading for a while and doing what the internet world calls "lurking," why don't you go crazy today and decide to "delurk." I know--it's hard. I, too, was once a lurker of great proportions (see comments here). But NOW I make it a point to leave comments as much as possible. You can do it, too!!! So GO FOR IT!! I'd love to hear from you, and if you have a blog of your own, I'll stop by your place for a visit. (If you don't have a blog, just comment as "Anonymous" and then you can always sign your name in the text.)

AND it is O--KAY to be a "Follower" of this blog. (I give you permission. Go ahead.) Here's what you do. Look at the first box in my LEFT sidebar (see it?); click the button that says "Follow;" then decide if you want to go "public" so I'll know you're there, or continue to "lurk" (ha!); then sit back and enjoy post updates from here (and any other blog you'd like to follow). Again, I must plug Google Reader. I keep a Firefox tab permanently on Google Reader so that I have a constantly-updated list of all the blogs I follow, providing me with plenty of reading material for when I sit down to nurse. (Man, some of you "post-a-day" people wear me out inspire me!) Thus, I'm NEVER bored. You bloggers keep me awake and entertained! Thanks!! Alright...now go to it.

Flair

And to my regular readers (I know you're out there), you can check out the party by clicking the button at the beginning of this post or the one in my sidebar. The party runs through tomorrow (Friday the 27th)...yes, I'm bringing up the rear (stop feigning surprise). IF I were to win a prize, my choices would be:

1. #7 Ergo Baby Carrier (because my friend Devon recommended one to me a while ago and, well, I can't afford one right now)
2. #53 Signing Time Parent Success Kit (for my 3rd child who doesn't have much to say, or who has a lot to say and simply can't)
3. #9 Child's Crayon Apron (because I used to have one when I was a little girl. awww...)
4. #58, #59, #65, #68, #89, #107
   

Chick-fil-A: Really?

Before watching this video, scroll all the way down to my Playlist at the bottom of the screen and click Pause so that you don't go insane listening to two songs at once. ugh.
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I think I've eaten at Chick-fil-A maybe once or twice in my life, and that would have been back in my weekend mall-roaming days (aka junior high school years). I don't know why. I guess I don't typically frequent many fast food places anyway, but it DOES seem that people LOVE their Chick-fil-A. Our pastor recently recommended the following video for a good laugh (WHICH I indeed had):




Hmm...maybe I should try it sometime...

Snips, Snails & Pretty Pigtails

Noah had a HUGE milestone kind of day last week!! He's been working on tying shoes for several weeks now. We'd just do a little bit at a time--to keep frustration levels nice and low. He's known the fundamentals for a while, but putting them all together hadn't quite happened yet. Tuesday he suddenly got all motivated (on his own) and put his mind to figuring this thing out. He needed a couple of pointers during the process, but after only a short time he HAD IT!! He was SO pumped! I wish you could have seen him jumping up and down--so proud of himself.

And THEN he had his very first soccer practice of the season. Now, just so you get a clear picture here: we're talking about a newbie soccer-player-wanna-be putting on cool, baggy soccer shorts (and the anticipation of cleats very soon) to head out into the sunshiny day and the grassy field to meet seven new soccer friends/teammates and a couple of coaches and run around kicking a ball for an hour or so. He was beside himself!! Don't have to tell HIM twice to go get his shoes on...and besides, shoes with laces are WAY fun to put on now!!

It was a VERY big day. (Did you know he's just a couple of weeks away from SEVEN??!! SO hard to believe.)

Fancy Footwork

I got the biggest kick out of watching Noah's face while the coach handed out all their goodies: uniforms, water bottles, car magnets, etc.

Saylor is becoming more and more lovely each day. People (often perfect strangers) STOP us to tell us how beautiful she is. And they don't even get to see the daily stuff, like her kneeling beside Baby Atticus to stroke his head and sing "Jesus Loves Me" or "read" him a story. She does that stuff without being asked. She just has compassion for him, whether or not he is in need of attention at the moment; she's content to just go be with him because he might like the security of her company. (And he definitely does.) She's going to make a wonderful mommy some day.

The Prettiest Ballerina That Ever There Was

Gabriel is doing so great now that he's totally dairy-free! It's amazing. He's back to being the "eater" of the family. Well, every once in a while things have to come back out because the texture just didn't work in his mouth. Could this be a teething thing for him? Or is he more like Saylor than we originally thought? Hmm...time will tell, I guess. He, too, dotes on Atticus, though not quite in the same way. He is eternally aware of Atticus in "fussy-mode" and rushes to take care of things by finding him a toy or giving him his "Silkie." It's very sweet. I'm not sure if it's because he loves/cares for him or if he just thinks that's what he's supposed to do at those times...OR if he's just desperate to stop the noise. Haha!

Gabe and His OWN Beloved Silkie

Atticus is amazing. He rolled over the hard way (back to stomach) on February 17th (at about 4.5 months). He LOVES the Johnny Jump-Up where he trains each day to become a "Tigger." It's hilarious. He says "dadadadada" and "dididididi" and even if he just woke up and has "said" nothing yet, if I start saying "dada," he will repeat it. Awww. His little voice is too precious for words.

Rolling...

Rolling...

Rolling...

Last month's "Snips" are posted here.

Past Posts

I found a couple of blog posts I had drafted and never published (from back in February) because of all the trouble I was having. I had forgotten all about them. Anyway, I've now posted them according to the date on which they were originally written. You can find them here and here. OR you can just click "February" on the Archive list and find that whole month's posts.

American Idol--Still Hooked For Whatever Reason

Sometimes I get ready to blog and it's all I can do to keep from starting with "So...". I mean, it sort of naturally rolls off my tongue (or in this case, off my fingertips), and that's because it's almost always what I feel I NEED to say. It's my brain's way of clearing through the thought clouds and pausing (with dramatic flair) just before unleashing them here for you. Most of the time I try to refrain, but not today. {grin}

So...I felt the need to weigh in on the American Idol thing, and BooMama just so happened to give me that chance. Ha! To get started, here's a quick run-down of my viewing history:

Season 1--Could care less, saw "0" episodes. Even scoffed a few times over others' obsessions with watching.
Season 2 through 6--Suddenly got involved and couldn't get enough of it--I LOVE competitions, especially singing ones.
Season 7--Not sure why, but I just ducked out of the whole AI craziness, though my mom kept trying to drag me in. I think I needed a break, and frankly, I'm glad I took it!
Season 8--Well, I'm back in. What happened?! I don't know. I'm biting at the bit each and every week to find out what's going to happen. (Right where Fox wants me...)

The irony is that while I thoroughly enjoy the competition part of it, and I LOVE to hear good singing, I do NOT get into all the "culturally relevant," "highly marketable," "but CAN he/she sell some RECORDS??" business that AI ultimately becomes about. I can't HELP it. Music for me has never been about money. I'm a "touching lyrics, haunting melody, singable, catchy tune, gorgeous tone, unique style" kind of person. Those are the things that count for me. And while I agree with Simon (yes, I said it) 98% of the time, I am definitely NOT on the same page as he with regard to WHY a particular person should stay or go because it eventually comes down to the business side of "music business" for him. I'm way too mushy for that. I guess this show is sort of confusing because they call it a "singing competition," but then they let people vote, which makes it a popularity (aka "what sells") competition. Which is why folks like Sanjaya (from Season 6) stay on longer than they should and folks like Melinda Doolittle (also Season 6) leave far too early. This used to frustrate me quite a lot because I think everyone should agree with me on what is so clearly obvious (and if you don't agree Sanjaya was TERRIBLE and Melinda was AMAZING, then I truly don't know what to do with you). Now, I've just adopted a "Who cares? That's life." attitude. I mean, past winners like Ruben and Taylor (both of whom I was a fan) didn't go on to do great things (at least not yet). That proves just how fickle the music industry is, so really who cares? It's just a dumb show. A pretty entertaining dumb show. But dumb nonetheless.

Wanna know MY true test?? ('cause I KNOW you do...) If, while listening to a singer perform, I close my eyes and my heart (yes, my heart) either smiles, melts, or breaks (or any combination of those), and I can answer "YES!" to the question "Would you be able to listen to a whole CD of THIS?" then that person's got my vote. As a result, this year I've got several favorites. Danny "Oh-MY-That-Boy's-Got-Soul" Gokey. Matt "Can-Sing-Just-About-Anything-And-Sound-Amazing" Giraud. Well, okay, I guess just two faves. I'm not totally AGAINST the others, they just aren't the ones I particularly WANT to win. I can certainly appreciate the unique vocal styling of Megan (the quirky blonde with the new dance moves), the grungy, hoarsy power of Allison (the burgundy-head), the consistency of Alexis (the petite young mother who has no business being flattered about being called "dirty"), and the wildly crazy range of Adam (the weird rocker who's an eclectic jumble of five different styles of rock at once). (And it must be said that I'm most definitely WAY too old to come anywhere CLOSE to liking Adam's "art.") Like I said, I can appreciate these things; I just can't get all excited about them. I certainly couldn't listen to entire CDs-worth of these folks. Versatility isn't just about musical style; it's also about vocal quality. And I just can't see myself listening to even TWO songs in a row by ANYone else in the competition. So far, that is.

Well, I take that back. Kris Allen is one I could listen to; I just don't think (so far) he's proven himself to have quite the musical depth of MY two faves. AND ten years ago I would probably be able to listen to Megan. I think she's interesting, even if she IS so immature that she hasn't figured out how to be "relevant" without being immodest. (I SO tire of knowing what people would look like if those scraps they call clothing weren't there.) Time will tell if she can "grow" a little and become a bit more vocally versatile (so that my poor ears won't get sick of hearing her).

Anoop did a good job tonight. He seems like a sweet kid, doesn't he? I'm glad he redeemed himself after last week's HORRENDOUS effort at an MJ song. And though I'm with Danny G. ALL. THE. WAY. he didn't "hang" with the song quite like he needed to tonight. It was, as they say, "a little too big for him." Haha! Just kidding. No, I think the verses were weak. Maybe he was nervous. Maybe he's coming down with the flu like Megan. Maybe that awful jacket the crazy stylists made him wear was compressing his diaphragm. Who knows? Randy was right, though. It was a support problem. Don't worry. He'll work it out... :)

As I started to say before though, I've come to a place in my life where I just can't get terribly worked up over shows like this. I'm amused by much of it, but it stops there. All that "this is my dream" and "chance of a lifetime" stuff is ridiculous to me. I just want to roll my eyes and mutter, "Oh, puh-lease!" Not that I think they are disingenuous. I just think they don't have any idea what life is all about or how this is all going to end up for them. As much fun as a career in the music industry could easily be, it certainly isn't the be-all and end-all. I could never have a life like that and still feel like I was even coming CLOSE to the quality time I now have with my husband and children. And that's what it's all about. Many a musician has died lonely. That's what I'M thinking. Maybe that's just me justifying to myself why I never auditioned for AI when I was still young enough. Nah. I NEVER needed that kind of drama...

Maybe the most ironic part of it all is that unless the winner puts out a Christian CD, I probably won't buy any AI albums anyway. That's just where I put my money these days. On stuff that is spiritually encouraging to me and my family. I could expound on this, but I'm going to stop now. (Too bad they don't make CD singles anymore. Remember that? Or DO they?! I wouldn't know. I don't shop in stores.)

So...{grin}...anyway that's my take. (not that you asked for it)